Why can't I get over you?

Break-ups are so common place. It is estimated that the average person will go through six break-ups in their lives. Everyday I hear about people breaking up and making up, I watch movies about it, I especially watch weird slow motion music videos about it where a hot video girl runs down a road or throws a vase of flowers at the singer.

But why does it hurt so much when it happens to you?
I've tried to isolate the emotions so that I know exactly what I'm dealing with.

1. Ego
A relationship ending is first and foremost a huge upper cut to the ego. You want to believe that you did everything right and were a very good girlfriend. You want to believe that you tried your hardest so when someone says that they don't want to be with you anymore its difficult to accept. You also feel really small because trust me atleast every person in your workplace, extended family and even car guards at your usual shopping centre will ask where your significant other is and then you'll have to repeat over and over and over again that you and him broke up.

2. There goes the Eurotrip
Most of all its a loss of hopes, dreams, plans and expectations. You feel lost and unable to figure out what you want and how to go about doing it because so much of your relationship focused on the future. There would have often been conversations like "One day when we're rich we'll book that Eurotrip for the two of us." or "One day we'll get a nice two-bed with a small garden." Down to 'We totally have to watch X Men when it comes out!" So now all of a sudden you don't know who you're going to do these things with or even worse if you even still want to do them.

3. Weather for cuddling
It sucks when you get home and usually your significant other might come over and you guys wouldn't do anything but lie in front of the TV and cuddle. Somehow you didn't feel like a hermit when you were doing that with him but doing it alone makes you feel like a crazy cat lady. There seems to be so many hours to fill yet when you think about it the two of you did very little. You stayed in bed till 11am on a Sunday, you ate, went back to bed, ate again, watched Carte Blanche and the 8 o' clock movie and then went back to bed. So howcome Sunday feels like an arid desert of nothingness without him?

4. Mindpower
You convince yourself, when your in a relationship, that your significant other knows your mind. He has some strange voodoo that allows him to know exactly what you're thinking, allows him to see when you're angry or hurt. He knew just how to calm you down and make you feel better. He told you, you were beautiful and made you feel like the smartest person in the world. He was always there when you needed him. If I'm honest I guess we wouldn't be broken up if he knew me that well, he'd have seen how unhappy I was and him not being there for me wouldn't have been one of the reasons we always fought but no matter how bad I know it was it just downright sucks not having someone like that to text, or call or post on their Facebook wall.

Top Ten Animals in Movies.

A few days ago I watched 'War Horse', knowing full well that it would be the type of movie that would make me cry as all animal movies do. Seriously there's no animal movie that won't make me cry! I cried in Homeward Bound, Bambi, Two Brothers...when I see animals being emotional and cute the floodgates open!
So that's why I decided to compile a list of my top ten favourite animals in movies.

10. Church the cat from Pet Semetary

This seems like a weird choice but I watched Pet Semetary again recently and this cat has so much personality! It spends the first half of the movie mainly in a glass case and gets its balls chopped off! Then comes back from the dead thanks to the native american burial ground (them native americans always leaving burial grounds lying around) and basically becomes a zombie cat. However even as a zombie cat his personality is still pretty much like a normal cat...cat owners wouls concur that once you've owned a cat the scene where Church drops the mauled rat into the bath is not so horrifying after all the cat kills you've witnessed.

9. Baloo and Bagheera from the Jungle Book

I'm counting these two as one animal because they compliment eachother so well.
Bagheera is so wise and such a cat and Baloo so fun loving and jovial, what more could a feral child ask for?
Also they're Indian so I'm being patriotic.

8. Sebastian the Crab from The Little Mermaid

Sebastian is extremely cool! Not only does he have an awesome accent but he's also loving and protective, gives good advice and is as good a performer as Freddie Mercury! I would have included Ariel too but after thinking about it long and hard I realised she was more human than animal.

7. A Velociraptor from Jurassic Park.

Ok so, I know this is a scary animal and also a dinosaur but if you're thinking that dinosaurs shouldnt have been included on this list they you may as well stop reading now!
Velociraptors became my favourite dinosaur after I watched Jurassic Park, before that I didnt know much about them. I reject the idea of them being covered in feathers as paleontologists have recently suggested and prefer to think of them like this. Lithe, scaly creatures with peircing eyes and human-like intelligence. Also they obviously don't have names because they were running around killing everyone before they barely got acquainted but I'm going to say my favourite is the instigator one that Robert Muldoon is obsessed with.

6. Willy from Free Willy

 This Orca is beautiful and seemingly docile despite the fact that in reality Orca's are terrifying, blood thirsty animals. I loved this movie when I was a kid and thought that one day I might become a dolphin trainer and have an orca as my best friend. This is the problem with movies like this though, the point of the movie is overshadowed by the cuteness of the animal so what should have been a catalyst to free orcas actually became an incentive to enslave them.

5. Black Beauty from Black Beauty.

Ok, now would be the time to admit that I was once one of the horse obsessed little girls with the full riding get-up, reading stables and spending every waking moment at the actual stables. I read black beauty when I was proably about 6 or 7 and when the movie came out around that time I fell in love with this horse! All I ever wanted was a black stallion to ride but my parents wouldnt even get me a my little pony toy.

4. Joey from War Horse

Eventhough I just watched this movie this horse is one of my all time favourites! He is so beautiful and clever.
I balled my eyes out when he had to plough the field, in the rain! And pulling the artillery himself to save his horse friend was so compassionate and heroic! this is an amazing horse!

3. Balto from Balto

There had to be atleast one dog on this list and I choose Balto! Balto is hard-working, loyal and sensitive and he was a real dog not just an animated movie. He's also half wolf, as can be seen from the screen shot and therefore dealing with issues of being mixed race, or rather mixed species which makes him complex and broody but also very cool. PS: other wolves I like are Ghost from game of thrones and Akela from The Jungle book.

2. Richard Parker from Life of Pi

Richard Parker, so named because a hunter named Richard Parker found the tiger drinking from a stream and called him Thirsty. When he sold the tiger to the Pondicherry Zoological Gardens the names on the forms got mixed up so the hunter's name was Thirsty and the tiger was named Richard Parker for ever after that. I loved this tiger in the book and the film brought him to life in all his glory. Majestic, powerful and deadly. He shows emotion, and keeps Pi alive but, atypically for most films featuring animals he never stops being a tiger.

1. Littlefoot from The Land Before Time.

Yes a dinosaur is number 1! Littlefoot is the leader of the baby dinosaurs, sensitive, innocent and grieving and that's what makes him the cutest little animal ever. However I actually love all the baby dinosaurs, even Cera. This movie was my childhood! My dad rented it for me 3 times a week for 3 weeks before he realised he was going to have to track down a copy and buy it.  I became so obsessed with it that I watched it every night before bed for a whole year, Its a wonder that my VHS didnt get horribly unwound. I started a tradition in the family that every child that came after me also became mildy obsessed with the land before time. My teachers in grade 2 thought I was a child genius after witnessing me tell the story of the little dinosaur who goes on a quest after his mother dies, it was only later that I admitted my plaguerism, never to be believed again. this film is beautiful and for me no other animation matched up to it, not even The Lion King. It didnt sugar-coat death and grief, it was real and yet somehow beautiful. The soundtrack was perfect and the narration, by Pat Hingle, set the tone for a coming of age and profound film.